fringe!

the last day of the 1st half of 2009. time really does fly! to celebrate the 2nd half of 2009, i decided to get a new haircut. not really a decision, but just came to realize after my hairdresser finish cutting it that i somehow have a fringe! i was at a total lost for words the moment i saw my own reflection. i have never have a fringe since secondary school.

before:

after:

straightened it because i have a head full of wavy and thick hair. too much hair, unmanagable! so, what do u guys think?

i am learning to love a fringe but i bet it'll grow out fast. the only problem is that i have to tilt my head to the right to prevent my left parting from falling over. yes, call me crooked-head lady.

i have decided during this short period of time i used to create this post that i love my new fringe. it pokes into my eyes and nose every now and then, but at least my head (and face :D) looks smaller and not so thick. maybe i won't let it grow out, who knows :I

28th on 29th

28/6

went shoe shopping after a brief visit to The One Academy in penang. all i can say is that digital painting is as hell marvellous. the person who created the coral painter software and the tablet thingie is a genius! nope i m not considering changing courses, my sis is going there next year.

some random shots in gurney while shoe hunting and loitering around.

these are not posed
ettiquette101: how a woman and man (should) sit

and the goal i gave myself 3 weeks to achieve, i have achieved. behold, my new love *drum rolls*

they are so versatile, i had tried pairing them babies with cropped pants, knee-length skirts, ankle-length full skirts, tube dresses, skinnies, leggings, shorts. whatever clothing you put on, these babies complemented them perfectly! worth the buy!

i especially adore the graphics on the wedge itself. lurve X)

and and! i found another new love!

nokia 5800 xpress music

image googled

but i m still waiting for my results that are coming in another 3 weeks. i wana feel that i deserve to own it, not simply owning it. and i feel bad to leave my motorolaL7 secluded in a dark corner of the cupboard. she will cry:(

i am still open to any suggestions! but i guess it's hard to find another phone that best fits my demands. budget around rm1200, and a touch screen! was addicted to touch screen since playing around with his htc touch pro. touch screens are evil. u get addicted to it.

home means delicious home-cooked food, comfy bed and spacious room. and durian adds to the marvellousness of it all. she doesn't want to leave. so she will treasure the 3 weeks she has here and to indulge herself in food, family and fun:) she misses him.

27th june

i am back home! oh the food, and my beloved family! on my way back from sunway, mum, dad and me stopped by ikea and the curve. ikea does not allow any photo-taking, but somehow i managed to dodge the staffs.

but first we had lunch at the food court on the ground floor (i think)

mum's taufufa with corn topping

dad's chicken rice

my tomyam beehoon was so sucky i didnt even attempt to take a picture of it. but these onde-ondes were niiiice!

then we made our way thru the ikea showroom, where everything on display was so incredibly beautiful. so i had to breach the "no photographs" rule, but i didnt know it at that time. so..not my fault lar!

it was not my first time there but one could not help feeling like a kid in a candy store in there. me and mum felt like moving into these well-made and fully furnished home. took many pics at the lightings area, these are the few i really love.

"i see a dead beetle"

look carefully -- this is a bucket full of used lightbulbs

two of the last few pics.

this is the last pic from ikea before i was ticked off by a staff

once back home i ate Pan Mee for dinner. and apples. and lychee juice. and some keropoks. and then i was so bloated i had to mope around doing nothing. but it was good :)

fun freedom

boy did we have fun yesterday! did some shopping at sg wang and pavilion. kinta got her first pair of heels!

"no longer a heel virgin kinta!" says xiu. slap! goes kinta's palm on xiu's arms accompanied by bursts of laughter so loud it could smash windows!

words are boring so let these pictures do all the babbling:)

me kinta yujia
kinta you're the odd one out! XD

okay...i'm the odd one out..

poser // jackie-o!
yujia u should have bought those glasses

a girl can dream:)

all pic credits go to our very own personal photographer yujia :D well, except the last one *grins and points to self*

she can't believe she have finished 1st year, and came out alive and unscathed. at least when she tells people "i m a 2nd year student" she won't sound like a freshie/newbie anymore. and she loves her girls. now is the time to sit back, relax and unwind for 3 weeks. "damn 3 psyche subjects next sem!"

Papa,

love u papa

The other day you said that you did not have the opportunity to be in university, and that you are very proud of me for being able to make it here. You said you would give me all the support and help I needed. You wanted me to study hard so I would not regret it later.

At that moment I could not think of anything to say but just to smile. Deep in my heart I know how much you want me to be successful in my studies and my life.

You are not one who expresses your emotions through kisses and hugs, but one who would quietly stand behind your loved ones. Being apart from everyone at Penang made me treasure everyone more than I could have imagined I would. I know that with your love and support I will always be cherished. Even though I am all grown up and is no longer that little girl who sits on daddy’s lap anymore.

Sometimes I wished that I could turn back time, back to my kindergarten years when you would take a break off work to take me riding on your motorcycle around the area. I can still remember the laughter we had, I can still see the broad smile on your face when you turned back to look if I was still sitting perfectly behind you. I can still feel the breeze blowing on our happy faces. That was the most wonderful memory of us. Just us two.

I know you are very proud of me, and that I have came this far, being in university and striving for my studies. I will never let you and mummy down! I will try my best at everything I do! When my graduation day comes, I want everyone to be so proud of me that everything else in the world would not matter anymore.

I will always love you, papa. Always. Happy Father’s Day.

Lovingly,
Xiu.

you are the sun in the night,
the stars in the day,
you may not always be right there beside me,
but you are there,
always.

You may not be the one who understands me most,
But one whose comfort I cherish.
You are the bitter in pills,
that never fail to make the pain go away.

You are the teacher that held my hand,
You are the lessons I love to hate,
But grew to love.

You may not be my best friend,
But will always be my beloved,
Beloved father.

random

what?

why?

um yea?

no idea.

hot.

happy song.

rubs nose.

taps feet.

rubs nose.

types on keyboard.

don't like the song.

weird.
empty.

easy.

pass.
distinction.

fun play shop.

fly.

sms.

random?

huh?
what m i at?
another stupid song.

malfunction

change.

scroll.

"long post".

"what title?"

random.

huh?!

psychological intervention

• psyche finals in 8 hours
• 29 powerpoint slides to go
• 4 more topics to re-revise
• 6 days to com finals
• 6 days to freedom X)

the anticipation in me for a pair of new shoes is overwhelming. heels or wedges? honestly, i want both *grins broadly*

how about the one in red?
*edit 23/6: i dont want them anymore, i tried them on and my feet looked weird:( *

pic googled

i have longed for this a long time. draped tunics. comfy, and slouchy. i love slouchy, sometimes.

credit: forever21

and this smocked-waist printed skirt. will look perfectly perfect with a white tank or a tangerine tank or a grey one or a yellow one or a violet one. the list is endless! and a muted coloured bag. a big, chunky necklace would add some masculinity. love love love! don't get me started on the shoes :D

credit: forever21

okay back to my boring, dull-coloured notes of psychoactive drugs, brains, and what shiites. wish me luck for psy!

blood sucker

i went straight to auntie anne's for cinnamon sugar stix right after i was told that i m 4.1% over the normal, healthy body fat percentage. geez, talk about irony and slowly killing myself. and my body. but they are nice those cinnamon stix:)

consultation with california fitness made me understand my body better, i always thought my height was 153cm, but apparently i'm only 150cm:O i am very much tempted to apply for a membership with them and start hitting the gym this very moment. but then, i need cold.hard.cash. monthly fee, rm180. i can buy so many pairs of shoes with that money. initial payment, rm521 i think.jessica alba's abs don't come cheap. they cost a fortune. to me.

gonna call mum tonight and let her laugh at me. "mum, i told u i m fat", she'll say it's too expensive, and i do feel guilty for wanting her to pay for my gym membership. i need a job or anything, wash-plate-aunty or whatever. i don't want to live like a blood-sucker off my parents' hard earned money. it bothers me. alot.

or i'll just make it my resolution to at least do some brisk walking or swimming. i can still be healthy without a california fitness membership and sucking my parents' pot of gold dry.

i would indeed be wasting off their money if i continue lingering here instead of studying. i dowana fail psyche, i have to retake if i do. and again, it's back to money. those greens are human's lifeline. call me materialistic or watever, it's reality.

back to reality, back to studying. auntie anne's was marvellous. i am hyped up now after having my sugar fix:D

she's gracious that she has parents that love her and support her, she feels bad not earning her own money but still living off them at the age of 20. she needs to do something about it. and she doesn't know what, or how. she's guilty, despite the sugar fix.

bridge

a bridge connects land to land,

over rough waters,

or simply tiny streams.

they can be a humble piece of plank,

or an extravagant architectural success,

some can only support the weight of one person,

some the weight of twenty trucks.

we are our own bridges,

we may break down and cry over the most trivial things,

but we can also stand the pain of a broken heart.

we are bridges to others,

we connect people together,

we support them through life's up and down

no matter how plain,

no matter how elaborate,

a bridge is a bridge,

it withstands strong winds and harsh weathers,

forever unwavering,

resilient and resolute.

i am my own bridge,

withstanding cruel weathers

resilient in the mind,

resolute in my actions.

i am a bridge,

connecting land to land,

supporting the life of the world with my heart,

and deeply in my soul.

"bridge", blackhumour 200906092039

note to self: no stress for me in my finals, no stress baby no stress! resilient and resolute, confident and definite, strong and unwithering. mind over body. focus on all that is good. positive attitudes attract positive vibrations. like mum says "the law of attraction". yes lyn-xiu hell yea you can do it.

debut

a picture says a thousand words X)
so let this do the talking, because i'm so lazy to blog right now. psyche is calling my name, it needs serious attention. or i'll flop my finals. toodles:)

deep in her mind she's anticipating life after finals

spur of the moment

jrn presentation just flew past like "whoosh~~" and it was over before i even got the chance of peeing in my pants. it was a totally out-of-body experience, but as long as it's over, i'm happy:) will worry about the results later.

ftv visual test will be my priority this weekend. this guy in my class said he spent just over an hour on it, so i guess i will be able to, provided that i have read his work and know what to be expected. yes call me a cheat!

i m prepared on going head-on with finals this week and also for the following two weeks. i duno how, but i feel that i am more determined now than i was a week ago, maybe buffing up my confidence for the presentation somehow made that determination stick in me. hope it stays long enough for my finals.

blogging in the library makes me feel more intellectual too, i have no clue why.

nonsense nothings

ohmygod i think there's a problem with my blogger..it takes forever to load the "create post" page, my IE hangs everytime i navigate to it :/ what's the problem?

anyway tomorrow at 9am is my jrn presentation...oh shit i just hope i dun wet my pants and make a laughing stock out of my tiny self! i am not nervous now, but i know i will be once the time arrives.

my thoughts are not where they should be -- finals!!, they are roaming in places like mng, topshop, forever21, sg wang, cheese cakes, chocolates, and home... if i can focus my energy on my finals then i will not have to worry, here i am complaining and doing nothing. will start studying later.

i can't believe finals start next friday!! *gulps*

here i stop. wish me luck for jrn *prays with eyes tightly closed*

when the stars shine

when the moon smiles

when the clouds dance

when the wind blows

when the birds sing

when flowers bloom

everything feels good

positive vibes flow through my veins

being happy is all that matters

:)