illuminate

the battle starts tomorrow but i m feeling weak. i know i have finished all there is to study, but somehow there is a sense of restlessness. anxiety. insecurities.
mum asked me to pray and be calm, and that all will be alright. and i know i can. i know i can. i can. i will find the light.
illuminate.

oreos

blueberry icecream flavoured, that leaves a cool minty sensation down my throat.
that white background? yeah it's the flip side of my abnormal psychology notes.
getting back to it now.

times like these

1.2. animal butter biscuits

3.4. "the day the clocks stopped", a children's book from our once-upon-a-time children's book collection

5. magnets on fridge

6.7. b&w pictures hanging at home

xiaoxiao's eyes are not okay, they seem to be bulging out from her head it's damn scary. and i have finals starting next monday. but i'm okay. i'm okay, cuz i'm at home.

musings rantings fussings

karlie kloss looking fierce at lanvin!

feminine, flowy maxi skirts + manly, tough combat boots/super high platform heels for a tiny girl like me = love.

shall look for flowy fabric and ask grandma to teach me make one over the summer semester holidays!
as for the boots/platforms? shall wander and search.
have to buy new sandals, my beloved studded ones broke when i accidentally kicked at a protruding tile. still, will try to get it fixed as i love it too much for it to just die like that.

chloe, dolceandgabbana and lanvin spring2011 at style.com//hannelimustaparta//fashionsquad//ultra slick combat boots at forever21(d0t)com//stockholmstreetstyle

drooling session over, she shall hit the books immediately.

food marathon

have been eating the whole weekend! my whole week's worth of saving on food in uni came down to this! and at tgif and klcc the past 2 days. but we live to eat, right? so, grace and me, we had dinner at sushi zanmai tonight, and it was awesome!

what's better than eggplants? fried eggplants wrapped unagi! yums X)

i finally got to sink my teeth into these avocado sushi thingies i have wanted since the last time i went there. one word: iwantsomemore!! avocado+unagi+omelette all in one bite-sized (not quite bite-sized for me, they're quite a mouthful) sushi, what's not to love?

and this is some big gigantic oyster. i expected some foul-tasting un-fresh oysters, but these were nothing i stereotyped them to be. they were really sweet and succulent! and made me want more too!

best of all, we talked and it was a very relaxing night! we should do this more often, but in less good-food seducing = empty wallet places!

had fun the whole weekend, and so it's high time she works hard for the coming finals. let's get some work done!

10; cookies and cream

roamed around klcc, lowyat plaza and times square the whole day, making up for the anniversary we couldnt spend together last sunday. walked around with him helping me lug that damn heavy d90 just so that we could take random pictures of food and the sky. looked around for a self-adhesive photo album but to no avail. oh well, just have to keep on looking.

right arm around my neck
fingers entwined
pout pout laugh laughters
ice cream sweet
cherry on top
strawberries glazed in sugar
candy floss clouds
random toppled popcorn like stars
similar
to those in your eyes
twinkles in the sun
shining in the dark
so many years
hundreds of months
thousands of days
millions to go
i you we
i you we

thankgawdisurvivedthisfriday

finally get to take a rest, at least a weekend's break until i continue with studying on monday for the finals.

it was a freaking busy week! stayed back at uni library till almost 11pm every night, and ate dinner out of vending machines and waffle stalls. today was craziest! stayed up late last night to finish the results section and did the discussion section in uni 4 hours before the due time. printed it out at 5pm sharp, accidentally deleted off my abstract section and my title page and totally messed up my results tables, graphs and reference list. the printer at the computer lab was overloaded with printings of us 4 psychology students and there were curses every now and then from us four girls. once done with printing, we rushed to get them stapled at the its office, then ran all the way from level 4 to level 6 in the other conjoining arts building, and handed it in 15 minutes late. luckily the assignment-submission box was not closed yet. phew. and thankyou to those who gave me moral and physical support ie. michele, yujia, divya and simin :) love u girls!

anyway, heaved a sigh of relieve. then simin, yujia and i made our way to pyramid for a little walk-around and to have dinner. at tgif. what irony. this had been the worst friday ever, "thankgawd it's friday?" nooooo...i dont want another friday like this one!

anyways, dinner was soooo good. i especially adore the jack daniel's sauce for that burger! sweet and sour from the plum and a little bitter. those double-stacked quesadillas with loads of cheese in it was superb, and the mini desserts, heavenly! one for 3.90 and three was for 9.90, save!

am too exhausted for anything anymore, not even blog hop. so good night and have a nice and relaxing weekend! he's coming tomorrow :D

crappy diamond2 photos will have to suffice for today, except that of xiaoxiao :)

101010

thanks so much to friends who wished us (explicitly or implicitly) on facebook although we couldnt celebrate it together on this memorable day, it was overall still a very heart-warming day. to know that i m loved, not only by the guy who stood by me for so many years, but also loved by our circle of friends. you guys are terribly awesome!

thanks for all the *likes* and sweet comments on our statuses and photos and links, and for tagging us all over your own statuses, at the same time spamming other friends' homepages and notifications the whole of last night and today. my apologies as well as heaps of thank yous.

last but not least, thank you. for being there for me. we knew each other since we were 7, but it felt just like yesterday.

remember how at standard5, we were asked by our class teacher to sit next to each other for the rest of the year, on the first day of school year, we both had the exact same pencil box -- the metal pilot one with a dinosaur on it -- and the same mechanical pencils in different colours? we had to share one table because the teacher's table was somehow missing. tears are streaming down my cheeks as i m writing this, but happy tears they are.

had been stressing over psychology project the past weeks but today somehow i felt at peace, like everything's gonna turn out alright. xiaoxiao's sick with a swollen eye and is not eating, not drinking or moving, but as long as she's tough enough to make it through until the vet's visit tomorrow she'll be alive and kicking as well, she's a resilient little one.

and so i, too, will be, tough and resilient, taking example from an 8 month old kitty; in facing with life's hardships and with the workload and upcoming finals. so i will be, forever grateful to the loves of my life, to those who love and cherish me; family and friends, and you, the treasure of my heart and soul.

.Happy Anniversary.

696 acacia seeds, one clock that stroke 10pm. one camera, one photo editing website and one social networking site. one story. one love, that made this all possible. iloveyou.

nikon d90. picnik.

a pocketful of posies

the past week, i have been in a rather dark hole i have no idea why. maybe it's the stress from the projects and essays and return of essays that seems to be never ending! got 2 papers back yesterday, one was graded lower than i would have expected, the other better beyond my wildest expectation! ohwell, that means i had no loss, right?

after a week of mild depression (at least that's what michele said it was), i was really happy to get a day off from psychology project data collection and analysis. the past two days especially, was horrible. dinners in the form of kaya/sardine-stuffed buns from the vending machines at uni, and camping in the coldness of the library until 11pm. met up with grace at the library (i know right? of all places?) today to just chat and got some work done.

felt different waking up today, it's like i m a whole new person compared to yesterday and the days before. maybe life is not that bad at all, it's just a stage that we go through, rain before the rainbow. opening up to friends made me realized that i m the luckiest girl alive. although yes i was very devastated when he told me we couldnt celebrate it together today, but looking at the pretty side of things; pretty clothes at the spring2011 shows, taking and editing pretty pictures, somehow, cured that in-the-rut feeling.

that was the most perfect heart i have ever constructed my whole life. out of the 696 acacia seeds he gave me for my birthday years ago. yep, exactly 696, what a random number.

1, itsy-bitsy yellow flowers around campus. 2, the other side of sunway at dusk. 3, 696-acacia-seed-constructed heart
htc diamond2. nikon d90.

sidetracked

am supposed to be working on my psychology essay which is due tomorrow, but a little side-tracking might not matter that much. i editted and posted this to fb and tagged my sister, only to find out that xiaoxiao is sick. she hasn't eaten from morning till evening and we wonder why is it so. anyone has any clues?

worried.

blue/greens

mid sem break's over, it's back to a hectic last few weeks of the semester. psychology essay due wednesday, project report due next friday, online assessment the friday after that, and it's hi to finals. and hi to a 4 month long summer holiday. time flies.

counting down; sunday :)

introspective

scratches on palms. on arms. on calf. cat caused. itch on back. ointment. scorch. youth suicide and gender differences. culture. pink pendrive. no, dont like pink. but it's 8gig. readings. journal articles. late. late. late. essay. 2000 words. wednesday. friday. sunday. he's back! dearly missed. styledotcom. spring2011, balmain. dolce and gabbana. whites. blacks. dresses. skinny/cigarette pants. two more days. uni. data collection. stress. fluctuations. not sleepy. must finish. drive. shorts. top. read. stare. type. write. change. fireworks. pictures. has to work. right.

1. balmain spring2011
2.3. dolce and gabbana spring 2011
4. grandpa's water lily
5.6. fireworks in sunway

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